Judas Companion searches for another existence, beyond the common sense. She explores what it means to see the world through the eyes of an outsider. That outsider is an alter ego living within her own mind and body.

Through drawings, masks, and performances, her work explores how emotions slip into a reality that defies understanding. The results unfold — in a personal theatre set apart from reality and governed by her own rules. Its protagonists: the Blind Spot, the Poker Face, and the Shadow. Its synopsis: what lies beneath the surface. Each play circles around the same existential question: can I truly see who I am?

But the seeing is never neutral. It is a shadow play, a fragmented kaleidoscope of possibilities, which can take the form of a scream or a joke, a tragedy or a comedy, and everything in between. And screaming can be a cry for rescue, an eruption of fear, or a voice finally claiming its freedom. It can be an echo of a therapy that haunts her patient.

Looking at yourself objectively – is it possible? Judas Companion attempts, through transformation, disguise, and self-mortification, to exchange the subject with the object. This always results in doubt and culminates in failure. Thus, the creative act becomes the goal in itself. The process turns into the artwork. It reorients and gropes the boundaries of the inner being like a blind person.

Through her often-painful quest for liberation, a laugh resounds as well. Is this the smile of recognition, arisen from self-insight, or a mocking laugh — laughing at the failures? Here, doubt is not only allowed but embraced — usually dismissed as weakness, it gains weight, as laugh and scream work together in a purifying duet. They orbit like dance partners, repelling and attracting, caught in a trance that is both soothing and intoxicating.

By being raw — basic, bestial, unfinished — the artist holds up a fractured mirror. Nothing is clear. The image in the mirror is broken. The insight is only partial. The reflection is failure. Shame turns into pride. Pain becomes humor. Hatred transforms into love. What you see in the mirror is double. There is the reflection, showing you what you want to see of yourself. But through the mirror, on the other side, you see a soul, a shadow, shame, and pain, that is al lot harder to accept.

So, the question is: Do you see you?